All Over

It's all over. Show's over. As they always are, eventually. Now and then though a character gets so under my skin I don't quite know how to let her go.

Sitting in a restaurant yesterday after bumpout with some of the others tucking into an enormous banana split with chocolate topping and crushed nuts and it hits me. Hits me hard. So hard my heart suddenly hurts like crazy and I burst into tears right then and there. It's over, and I have to let her slip away and be just me again. I miss her already!

Time for a break. No more characters for awhile. (Just a little while.)

Back to uni today like nothing ever happened. But it did.

Oh Boy

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy. I can't sleep - I missed a whole night's sleep on Thursday night. I went on a leave of absence during the show last night. Apparently it was a great show. Should I be insulted? I'm better when I'm not there, lol!

Need a big, big sleep. Don't know when that will be...

The Girl in the Front Row

It's been quite a day and it's time for bed. My first day in a school and what I remember most is the girl in the front row sitting by herself with the glasses and the long, long hair - putting her head in her hands, shaking her head, muttering to herself... what is going on? I thought "My God - it's Agnes! I have to talk to her." But I didn't. I thought, she might die of humiliation if I draw the whole class' attention to her. So I didn't. I had tears in my eyes.

Great show tonight. I'm cherishing every moment. Trying to make time stand still. For a couple of hours, it actually does.

Mx

Singing Songs

In the never-ending tug-of-war that I loosely call time management the book has won out over all other considerations. I've been waiting for it. I've earned it. Everything else can wait!

Mx

Hello...

DOCTOR: How do you feel?
AGNES: Frightened.

Dear Agnes, what a journey this has been. If anyone had told me twelve months ago I would be playing a twenty-one year old girl who is sweet and innocent and naiive and who sings i would have said "No way!" And yet here you are and you've completely changed my life. I can't believe it will all be over soon. I don't know how I'll say goodbye. And I hope you will leave something, some little part of yourself, with me.

Well, here I am, creating a blog. Tomorrow is my first day in a school. There is, in all probability, preparation to be done. There is definitely preparation to be done for Uni on Thursday. And there is "Agnes" tomorrow night. But I am happily - creating a blog! My procrastination skills seem to be even more highly developed now than last time I went to university in 19.... 19... so long ago! To complicate matters a book has just arrived in the mail - the first of the Meg Tilly books I have ordered - "Singing Songs" and I can't wait to read it! In fact I would be prepared to bet money that before this evening is through I have succumbed to the call of tucking myself into bed and reading it through to the last page.

But right now an even greater call overcomes me. Pepperonini Pizza. And the dog claims he needs feeding. I must go. But I'll be back.
Mx

PS: Thankyou Amy for all the great stuff you've shown me. Blogging included. How exciting!